Several months into my weight loss journey, people began telling me that I was an inspiration to them, or to others. For a shrinking fat girl, that is a loaded statement.
For a long time, people have looked and stared at because I was a fat girl. Suddenly now, people have been looking to you, to see what I’m doing and how I’m doing it. It was the last thing I expected and honestly, it was a role that I was not ready to have put upon me. Why? Because it comes with huge responsibility; a huge responsibility not to fail.
And what did I do with my newfound role? I let it get into my head and I failed. Just 5 lbs. shy of my first goal, I began to gain weight again. I continued to exercise but I got a careless with my nutrition. The end result? I lost my spark and I lost my motivation.
I began to watch the Biggest Loser this season and it has inspired me. I’ve gotten my spark back! The most recent episode focused on contestants that sabotage themselves. As I watched, I realized that I have been doing the same thing for years. I get close to my goal and then I gain weight. I don’t know why I do that, but I vowed never to do it again. I’m back on track and hoping to stay that way for much longer this time.
It’s been a long journey and it will continue to be. Now, when people tell me that I inspire them, I take it as a compliment and continue on. I just keep doing what I’m doing and I’m not letting anything get in my way this time!